A good morning epiphany...

As I walked out the door this morning, I paused for a moment. It was sprinkling. Don't get me wrong. I'm no delicate flower. I'm not afraid of getting wet. In fact, S would argue that given the proclivity of my hair to frizz, I look better wet. Still, the danger, in my mind was what was waiting for me outside of The Bubble. Once I cross the bridge, the weather is unpredictable. It could be a torrential downpour for all I know. Well, I just put on my big girl panties and headed out the door. I was determined that I was going to walk every morning this week, determined to reach my goal.

Well, the sprinkles continued for a while, even outside of The Bubble. And then they stopped altogether. I was mildly upset. We need the rain. Ed, as a lawn guy, complains about it. Lack of rain equals lack of business. At the same time, for S, rain usually means a day off...without pay. Hmmm.

And I couldn't help but think about my life lately. It has been pouring on me, metaphorically. I've even been zapped by lightening once or twice. And on those inclement days, during those inclement times, it is so easy to get bogged down by all the bad going on. But let's face it, we need the rain. We need the rain for the grass to grow and the flowers I love so much. We need the rain to replenish the water table, wash clean the earth. That's what I like about the post rain moments outdoors. I like how fresh and new it smells. I like the scent of earth, the aroma of flowers, the way everything looks while drip drying.

 It's like that in life, too. Eventually, the storm subsides, the rain passes, and everything seems fresh and new again. And somehow, I think I'm on the cusp of that now. I'm peeking at my life dopplar and it looks promising, which is good since my rain gage has about overflowed. Even though I'm struggling right now, I know that I need these challenges to keep me sharp, to keep me focused, to help me better appreciate the good stuff.

There's lots of good stuff. I have two amazing kids. I have S. I have a roof over my head and food in my belly. I have a vehicle to drive. I have clothes to wear...that are getting baggy! I have a job that I mostly enjoy. I have hopes and dreams and aspirations. And we have big plans for our future. And none of it will be called because of a little rain.