"THe ANSWER is in MY EYES"

I think I know what exactly do I want.
I want to see this in His eyes.
I want his look to stay on me, confidently and sincerely, without the admixture of other senses. Without irony, without jokes , without games and deception.
Now it’s really hard to find someone who’d be sincere in his feelings.
I don’t want it to be just a lust, only a simple lust. I don’t want to be in a situation when I HAVE to say something. I don’t want to think about anything. I don’t want my embarrassment to distract me.
I want in a total, complete silence without sleep to look in his eyes with a sincere trust. And to fall asleep, still looking in them. And I want to be able to rely on myself and on him, and to do everything that We can to realize ourselves in this life, and not to be disappointed, and what is worse, not to be bored. To pass the idea though space and time (I’ve read somewhere about it).
That is what I want to do. I want to see myself tomorrow and on the last week and in 10 years.
I want to see all this and to start our life from this.
I want to know that everything is for good for both of us. I want to know that we won’t destroy each others’ life.
I simply don’t want to be the reason of someone’s disappointment. I don’t want to be someone’s luggage, making their life difficult. I only want never to forget how is it important to see the whole picture of the future, each second of the life. To lead my idea through the time and space. To live as I’m 15…but at the same time…as if I’m 80.
So, probably the answer is not in His eyes but in MINE……