You said yourself you are doing this intentionally, so you should know the reaction it can arose. This means you hurt these people intentionally. You feel negative about something and make them feel the same. I doubt it is a good way out. Being negative won't make you feel better, it just will bring to a deeper misunderstanding and loneliness. You defenitely know the rule: Positive thinking and attitude attracts positive events and peoole. So my advice to you, try to avoid negative thinking! ))))

I'm not negative, Marina, I'm injouing my state and doings ....As I've said- entertained by all this not usuall situations.....I'm not lying to myself....this is my inner world....and as you've said previously I'm a very strong person, belive me this would be impossible without POSITIVE thoughts....
And those people who suffer - are strangers for me 'cause my close people know from my voice if something is wrong...that means that I don't care about these people....

Shouldnt you care about everyone's feelings? I can see where your coming from about injouing your state and doings, but you have to be aware of how it can effect other people. You have two groups of people. 1. people who understand your doings, and 2. strangers wanting to know your doings. The people who don't know you very well, yes, there going to think your odd, or strange. I would give them time, and try to make them understand your rules. Maybe your coming off a bit negative without relizing it? And positive thoughts can always help every situation your in

...and the third group of people which I have - those who are just don't care about all this about Me, about my mood….))))